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May 19th, 2008


08:17 pm - because you never worked for it
slough off this disease.. called you
a little girl ,my thoughts are not few
why throw out the old when you can use
mascerated memories all chewed

you are a history
i'm still a mystery
you think..

why do i walk like this
when do i scream like that
were do i dance with who
when will i think of you

cough, inhalation the polution...called you
i'm the top of your list of things to do
not  simple enough for you got so confused
inteligable and discreet to fall for your rouse

you are a history
i'm still a mystery
youthink...

why do i walk like this
when do i scream like that
where do i dance with who
when will i think of you
Current Mood: [mood icon] giddy
Current Music: slow down baby - christina agulara

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May 3rd, 2008


10:00 am
I am on vacation.
will be back in June.
sorry for the inconvenience.

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April 30th, 2008


07:53 am
 According to a new study, Americans now spend 94% of their time indoors.

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07:48 am - i'm almost 21!
Being "Twenty-something" 

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along
with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about
yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure
and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because
you barely know where you are now. 

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends
that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people
you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the 
most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing 
that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they 
are as confused as you. 

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you
would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that 
you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find
yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have
certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your
list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry
with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and
confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the
past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and
further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move
forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love
someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing
this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One nightstands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and
acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same
emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the
same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself...
and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be
a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We
are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can
to figure this whole thing out.


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Current Music: paramore - that's what you get

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April 27th, 2008


09:05 am - not about anyone in particular - i just got bored.
you like the scent of my blood
so pour me out
evaporate my thoughts
torment my heart with your ideas
empower yourself with my meloncholy

go ahead, i dare you
i promise to
stand tall
prove myself to all
stronger though i may seem small
i know you want to

you like to taint my dreams
you enjoy the scent of salty tears
you've replaced happy thoughts with doubt
you've taken away what i can't live without
empower yourself with my sadness

go ahead, i dare you
i promise to
stand tall
prove myself to all
strong though i seem small
i know you want to
i dare you

truth be told
your tactics never get old
you'll never win in this life of mine
because i'm too fine
to let th elikes of you destroy
you stupid little boy

go ahead, i dare you
i promise to
stand tall
prove myself to all
strong though i seem small
i know you want to
i dare you
Current Music: i don't even know his last name - carrie underwood

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April 21st, 2008


03:19 am
The world's a stage and most of us are desperately unrehearsed.

    -- Sean O'Casey

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April 18th, 2008


06:06 pm
What Your Taste in Chocolate Says About You
You are sweet, mellow, and easily satisfied.
You don't like anything too intense and dramatic.
Deep down, you're a kid at heart... and you're nostalgic for the past.

You are mellow, spiritual, and philosophical.
You are a true humanitarian. You enjoy helping people.
Your heart can be too open at times. You sometimes over-extend yourself.

You love being around people. Friendships are important to you.
You feel lost when you're by yourself... so you tend to avoid being alone.

 

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06:17 am
over 100,000 asperins 
are consumed every day
in the united states of america

have you had your asperin today?

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April 17th, 2008


09:23 am

what is your definition of FAMILY?

mine is.. a family is a group of people who love each other and are there for each other no matter what.they support one another.and nothing can break the loveing bond between true family members. biological, fostered, adopted, steps,halves, siblings and parents come in many forms.. no matter. a family is what it is. beautiful..


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April 16th, 2008


06:24 am
 i'm not supposed to be up yet - but i am.

last night was wonderful.and today is suposed to be really nice. 70 degrees really nice. oh yeah...i'm  going for a walk outside.and i'm going to play outside with the foster kids and stay outside durring the kids naptime. i can't wait!

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April 15th, 2008


06:03 pm - unsent letters
dear body,
you look good - real fine.

dear hair,
can you grow any faster because next month is really soon?

dear brain,
thanks for helping me out this month. keep up the good work

dear heart,
no more falling. it's against the rules and you know i don't break rules.

dear friends,
i love you

dear best friends,
i love you and will always be there for you no matter what. i can't wait to see you next month

dear enemies,
i don't know you. i'm sorry for whatever i do to make you dislike me.can we be friends?

dear family,
you make me happy. i couldn't be anything without your love. thank you.
p.s. selah = dinner rocked tonight

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06:01 pm
i'm at my dad's just chillin. i love my dad.

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11:51 am
i want ... a potato gun 3000!

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09:59 am - honestly, guys...
 i'm ticked. those manipulative, self-centered, hot-shot, know-it alls, wannabe as good as me, will never be good enough, sleezy, inconsiderate,stupid, aftificially sweet, stinky feet women who are making money, wasting time, getting drunk, getting laid, getting overpaid for measily jobs, they sob on that stupid show THE BACHELOR. and i am sick of it.it's disgusting how these women shove themselves into this man's face, just screaming that they are desperate.

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April 14th, 2008


10:24 pm

CNN NEWS REPORT
Supreme Court turns down boy killer's appeal

  • Justices refuse to take up issue of sentences for children who kill
    Christopher Pittman was 12 when he killed his grandparents with a shotgun
    He was tried as an adult and is serving 30 years
    The case won notoriety because of defense that Zoloft affected his behavior

     i feel empathy torwards the boy who made the mistake of killing his grandparents. he needs to face the consequences of his actions and whatever reason his appeal didn't go through.. it didn't. no justice will bring those two innocent grandparents back to life.

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08:14 pm
right now i'm watching CMT's country music awards 2008. i forgot how much i loved country music :)

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07:52 am
 i woke up too early again this morning.. then ate too much breakfast and i don't care too much about that.sometimes i write too much. other times i talk too much but not to much to worry about. it's nothing to much to be concearned too much about. why? because too much is sometimes not enough, but enough about being too much or not enough.

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April 11th, 2008


01:05 pm - brownie cookies
1. make brownie batter according to recipe or box-mix
2.spoon batter into an ungreased cookie sheet 2 inches apart with small spoon
3. bake at 350 for 8-10 minutes
4. wait to cool slightly removing from cookie sheet. careful - they're hot
5. enjoy!


great for kids of all ages. even better for  menstraul mama's with little time to bake. great for girls whose worlds revolve around chocolate.. ahh, you get the point.

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April 10th, 2008


09:50 am - hectic thursedays
thursedays are my most hectic of all week. i wake up and feed the kids breakfast at  6AM or 7AM. 2 kids (one adopted brother and our oldest foster child who is 10)are off to school. i try to get a morning nap after my breakfast and then we get the rest of the kids ready for their visits with  their parents.

 diapers need changes,kids need dressed, and the youngest needs another bottle. we leave at 11AM and in btween all 3 visits with 6 kids piled in the van,we have lunch. and run errands. we arrive hone around 4PM and get dinner ready early because the kids don't get their naps on thursedays and go to bed early.

 after dinner  is made, my dad picks me up and i go to ( behavioural therapy for my bipolar dissorder type 1, and then ) his house for the evening, and a religious meeting (which i have to be studied for) later that night. he takes me home and i get there around 11 - we always have dinner at my sister's house after meeting so i get back late(yum). i workout and finish my emailing and blogs. i'm asleep by 1AM. on fridays there aren't as many visits( of foster children with their parents), so i can sleep in.

this thurseday is more hectic than most. but in between visits (around 12:15 we'll be at red lobster in the city for lunch) so i think i can handle it. hehe:) i like to keep busy.

what do you do durring the day that makes it hectic? 

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April 9th, 2008


11:20 am - writers block
 writers block
won't stop
thoughts bought
still not
able to write

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